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JUST FOR TODAY
Those words hold so much meaning. Not just to me but to so many that I know and so many more that I don’t know.
This picture came up in my Cloud picture memories today.
The picture was taken 4 years ago today. Those are my keychains from 3 decades ago. The one with my ex’s name could have given you that clue lol. I never broken up my collection of keychains and I probably never will. Each one has some kind of major significance in my life, but those in my hand there? Those have the most.
I won’t go into details, but I have faced addictions my whole entire life. Sometimes they were my own demons, sometimes they were other people’s demons.
Right now, my demons aren’t in the same family as those, but they’re still demons.
Finding those keychains, and again while seeing this picture today, made me break down and cry. For all that was lost, all those that I lost, but also happy tears for all that were saved.
I lost some of my most importants to drugs and I will never, ever, ever heal from that. But I’ve also had some of my most importants saved and I will forever be grateful to God and the Universe, and to those people who triumphed over their demons.
So, seeing this, seeing “Just for today”, made me stop and think. Really think.
I may not have the battle of alcohol or drugs with me daily anymore, but I have some that are close to me that I worry for with their troubles. I’ve always tried to save everyone I loved, its who I am. Even though I know I cannot heal them, I can’t stop myself from trying. But, just for today, I need to attempt not to.
I have to stop trying to heal the hurt of others, stop trying to make them see the light, stop trying to get them out of their self destructive behaviors, stop trying to change them. This is my current demon. I have to stop, no matter how much I love them. I need to love me more.
I need to refocus myself. Completely.
Just for today, I will focus on me. I will focus on my own heartache and healing. I will focus on my mental, emotionally and physical health.
#justfortoday #addiction #alcohol #drugs #recovery #healing
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